Sleepless Nite...

有好多话想说，但是。。。
我不懂从那说起。。

我想还是不说了。。。再说也是一样。。

说也说了
痛也痛了
哭也哭了

还能做甚么？


**他说爱是甜的，我说爱是苦的。因为我感觉痛痛的。

"What Finger Are You?"

You Are a Ring Finger

You are romantic, expressive, and hopeful. You see the best in everything. You are very artistic, and you see the world as your canvas. You are also drawn to the written word. Inventive and unique, you are often away in your own inner world. You get along well with: The Pinky Stay away from: The Index Finger

What Finger Are You?

我的朋友 - "小花"

今天的心情还不错。
感冒也好多了。。虽然还有点发烧。。。
但是我不觉得那里uncomfortable～

大家觉的器怪吧＝P
我是用了华语字来blog的～还不赖吧～
我终于有了这个chinese prog学这么type华语字！
哈哈。。。。
虽然有点难，但是我会一直打下去。。。
如果，有那个字打错，请你们别见怪。。。
我是第一次嘛。。。

我也想在这里＂谢谢＂我的两年多的朋友，＂小花＂
人家是个男生但是被我叫那么久。＝P
他人很好没有怪我＝）
even这个prog也是他send我的！！！

**the angels sing t0 bleSs uu~

the feeling...

he sent 2 mails t0 me...
but ii didnt reply him....
2hrs ag0, ii finally haf c0urage t0 reply him..
th0u things ii wanted t0 say haf let him n0e...
but....
ii dun feel g0od in my heart....
ii jus wan t0 cry~


**我是不是該安靜的走開 "還是該在這裡等待"

Sick..

flu flu flu flu flu~~~~~
ii nid personal d0ct0r~ =(


**Would You Be There?

Sleepless Nite...

as usual.. they n0t at h0me again...
al0ne at h0me...
sitting in fr0nt of k0r's c0m f0r 7-8 hrs already...

t0nite ii feel m0re al0ne..
ii dunn0 whyyy ii feel m0re al0ne t0nite.
ii hate tat feeling of absolute lonliness~
where ii feels like n0thing can make me feel better

h0w ii wish s0meone c0uld jus giv me a great big hug
and tell me iim n0t al0ne...

**在這冷冷的夜裡 我會學著面對獨處

Happy Meal..

XJ KOR came t0 visit me jus n0w..
he b0ught me t0 Mac eat..
as usual, ii asked f0r Happy Meal...
ii n0e ppl like uu-n0e-wh0-uu-rr always SAY "ii nv gr0w"..
x_X
ii dun care... ii like t0 eat "kids meal" marhs~~

Happy Meal c0mes wif... and he named, "大猪" =_="

k0r: xia0mei, tell uu wad "大猪" is t0 pair up wif "her"
Me: ....???
k0r: she is "猪猪"... uu dunn0 mehs?
Me: ......... =_="

back fr0m Mac, and ii start t0 take pics of "them"...
mew was ar0und and she laughed~ =.=
she said ii veri wulia0z...
but after seeing the pics..
she agreed wif me... Hahaha!!

"猪猪" be0-ing "大猪"

And they really meant t0gether...
~
~
~
~
They r happy n0w & f0rever... =P




**只對你說 "사랑해요"

big plaster f0r big w0und...

n0t s0 bad still g0t cutie plaster t0 c0ver it *blehz*

.

**爱到无可救药

am bleSsed wif XJ KORKOR's LOvE

ii went t0 f0od fair wif k0r jus n0w..
he s0 nice t0ok 1/2 dae pei me g0 f0od fair..
EAT.. EAT... AND STILL EAT....
Hahaha...
ii really ate al0t t0dae..
really make my k0r w0rry & malu-malu~
c0s ii ate 1 b0wl of laksa of la-jiu-l0ts-l0ts~
usually ii dun put chilli~
and then my tears dr0p in public~
-_-*
Hee.. ppls dunn0 t0t k0r bully me... w0ops!!
(s0rrie k0r, ii w0nt d0 it again~)
<-- ii l0ve the "free gift" uu gave me..
k0r said l0ok like me.. ii see here.. see there...
WHERE GOT?! @#$%^! =X


P/S: KOR pls g0 learn h0w t0 type~
then leave me a msg.. at least a "Hi" oki? =.="



**被爱是幸福

ii will try..

t0 be happy everydae..
f0rget wad had happened...
dun w0rry f0r me..

**柠檬草的味道"yogurt"

uu hurt me again and again...

h0lding on t0 tis relati0nship n0t easy....
ii been telling myself haf t0 hang on...
c0s all the l0ng my daddy dislike the idea ii having bf...
and my life changed...

it is true.. ii still y0ung...
study sh0uld c0mes first..
ii d0 n0t n0e whyyy ii became like tis...
maybe ii t0o naive?

ii haf n0t tell him h0w pain ii feels inside~

c0s it was late...
he even t0ld me his hand injured cos he hit against a car
and was sent t0 SGH 2 daes ag0...
alm0st l0st his hand..

when ii n0e he was in pain and he nids t0 g0 back camp tmr~
h0w am ii g0ing t0 carry on telling him h0w ii feels..?
*hais..*

and ii n0t sure tat if he read my bl0g recently...

he was back h0me at ar0und 11plus jus n0w..
ii asked him t0 explain t0 me..
he t0ld me..
she was actually his "gan la0po"~ (g0d-wifey)
ii was like... .. .. *haiss*
and ii g0ne SPEECHLESS....

ii haf nv heard of "gan la0po"~~
all ii n0e haf "gan k0r", "gan jie" etc...

NOOOOOO...
ii cann0t accept own bf haf "gan la0po"..
jus like if ur own hubby having affair outside...
can uu accept it? =$
0hh my g0odness...
wad ii am t0king ab0ut... =.="

he said ii jeal0us...
he said ii g0t t0 trust him...
h0w am ii g0ing t0 trust him like tis???
like wad my fren said..
"g0t la0po ler still nid gan la0po??"

tis is wad ii g0t fr0m his friendster msg:
[[[Ben
Posted 17/5/2007 4:04 PM

laopo.. wo xiang nii. confirm sleeping like a pig nw. but laopo look so cute while sleeping. hehe. *muacks*]]]

the "la0po" he refering is his "gan la0po" n0t me..
the way tat gal t0k was s0.. ... *haissss*
even his frens als0 said THEY s0 sweet & ask him whether they r t0gether?
w0rse thing is...
he put up a gal pics named his la0po..
ii n0t sure if the gal is his "gan la0po"
but n0t impt...

ii dunn0 h0w cl0se both of uu..
it really sick when uu asked me t0 g0 see page 23 of ur c0mments~
and telling me maybe ii w0uld understand m0re..

h0w am ii g0ing t0 understand when my bf
calling an0ther gal "la0po"
and ii wasnt aware of anything...

ii reallly reallllly veriiiii tiredddd....
ii d0 n0t n0e h0w l0ng ii can hang on anym0re..



p/s: lengleng, thanks f0r listening me out, stand by side and supp0rt me..
mewmew, uu always my g0od sis and always lend me sh0ulder when ii nid it...
dai l0u, thanks f0r the acc0mpany and advise..
and s0rrie ii didnt g0 "IN" bed and pls dun BLOCK me =.=



**原来爱情这么伤

c0nfusing..

ii was s0 sad t0dae..
cant eat.. cant sleep...
n0 m0od f0r anything....

frens said he might be playing wif tat gal...
but...
tis kind of thing can "PLAY"?
ii dunn0.. ii really dunn0....

and ii tink ii sh0uld giv him a chance t0 explain...
ii really cherish tis relati0nship..

ii checked my email jus n0w...
ii saw his mail, which sent tis m0rning...

after reading...
ii was t0uched.. sad... disapp0inted...
ii cry again...
iim tired....
really veri tired.....

**爱能不能不变?

你伤了我的心. . .

ii viewed ur friendster...

saw ur new pics, ur frens msgs..

ii saw a few pics of HER...
ii d0 n0t n0e wh0 is she...
is she ur EX??
or uu guys jus started??

uu stated the gal in the pic is ur LAOPO...
thru s0me msgs on ur friendster....

ii saw......

she calls uu DEARDEAR...
UU CALL HER LAOPO.....

and the rest n0 nid me say ler..... =(

wad happen t0 uu?

**he was online jus n0w & ii didnt n0e.. =(

XJ KORKOR xD

jus wanted t0 dr0p a sh0rt n0te t0 tell uu..
thanks f0r taking care of me ydae..
XJ k0rk0r 我爱你!!

ii addicted...

溏心风暴 - HK Drama
Mars VS Venus - SG Drama
Diner Dash - DsLite

L or F?

ii am starting t0 feel tat ii am fighting my battles al0ne...

n0w ii haf no idea uu rr L or F?

uu were my pillar once..
the pillar wif "strength" and "supp0rt" has since g0ne..
ii had always h0ped tat one dae...
uu w0uld see things fr0m my side but yet till n0w uu dunn0...

uu w0uld tink tat ii really fine..
but did uu actually l0ok hard within me and sense h0w unhappy ii am??
s0me0ne t0ld me tat each time they see me, ii seem sadder and sadder..
ii was shocked by h0w obvi0us tat was bec0ming..

did uu haf n0 idea at all?

daddy..

all ii n0e is t0 care of my own feeling..
and never t0t of daddy's feeling..
he haf been trying hard t0 make us like a family...
but ii only n0e h0w t0 make him angry times and times

ii really tired.. really tired...

ii dunn0 wad t0 d0 everytime..

all ii see is mrs lee sc0lding my daddy tis and tat~~
it hurts me deep inside..
iim n0t the only one n0t happy...
daddy ALSO!!!

these few days...
ii didnt speak t0 daddy a single w0rd...
he is busy wif w0rk and "attack" by mrs lee..
ii cant let him haf any pressure anym0re..

ii will be ur g0od daughter always..
always and always.....

ii LOVE uu daddy~

心动变成心碎

♥ 如果你从没出现, 我会不会觉得快乐一些 ? ♥

m0ther's dae c0ming..

♥ mummy, ii miSs uu ♥
♥ mummy, ii miSs uu ♥
♥ mummy, ii miSs uu ♥
♥ mummy, ii miSs uu ♥
♥ mummy, ii miSs uu ♥

*ii wish daddy, mummy, k0r and me 1 family~*

my heart hurts

ii n0e ii sh0uldnt be here again~
as ii haf sci paper tmr~~

ii w0ke up at ar0und 12+am..
h0ping t0 find my dear on msn or maple.
ii really nids t0 t0k wif him
and ii saw him on msn....

Dear: laopo!!
Me: hiie dear~~
Me: cant st0p tinking of uu t0dae~~
Dear: haha
Dear: really?
Dear: y?

saw wad he replied me..
ii n0e it is his habit of putting "haha" or "l0ls"~
but s0metime ii really dun like seeing it..
ii did t0ld him ab0ut tis b4...
but he dun seems t0 rem it~

it wasnt a big pr0b~
ii jus wan t0 say my feeling ab0ut it~~

later,
f0und out he was in maple.
and he wasnt at elnath~~
s0 ii t0ok cruise back t0 vic find him..
ii wanted t0 tell him wad haf happening t0 me t0dae..
and miissed him badly~~

ii nv felt like tis b4
ii even cried t0dae~
ii used t0 share my t0ts and pr0bs wif mewmew~
but n0w... *hais...*

in the end, we didnt manage t0 chat~
he want me t0 g0 study~
ii n0e study is impt~~
but really h0pe t0 chat wif him awhile.. =(

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"h0w ii wish dear held my little hand everydae"

sleepless nite & al0ne at h0me

ii sh0uld be in bed at tis time..
c0s ii haf paper ltr in the dae~

ii tinking of my dear again~ =(