uu hurt me again and again...

h0lding on t0 tis relati0nship n0t easy....
ii been telling myself haf t0 hang on...
c0s all the l0ng my daddy dislike the idea ii having bf...
and my life changed...

it is true.. ii still y0ung...
study sh0uld c0mes first..
ii d0 n0t n0e whyyy ii became like tis...
maybe ii t0o naive?

ii haf n0t tell him h0w pain ii feels inside~

c0s it was late...
he even t0ld me his hand injured cos he hit against a car
and was sent t0 SGH 2 daes ag0...
alm0st l0st his hand..

when ii n0e he was in pain and he nids t0 g0 back camp tmr~
h0w am ii g0ing t0 carry on telling him h0w ii feels..?
*hais..*

and ii n0t sure tat if he read my bl0g recently...

he was back h0me at ar0und 11plus jus n0w..
ii asked him t0 explain t0 me..
he t0ld me..
she was actually his "gan la0po"~ (g0d-wifey)
ii was like... .. .. *haiss*
and ii g0ne SPEECHLESS....

ii haf nv heard of "gan la0po"~~
all ii n0e haf "gan k0r", "gan jie" etc...

NOOOOOO...
ii cann0t accept own bf haf "gan la0po"..
jus like if ur own hubby having affair outside...
can uu accept it? =$
0hh my g0odness...
wad ii am t0king ab0ut... =.="

he said ii jeal0us...
he said ii g0t t0 trust him...
h0w am ii g0ing t0 trust him like tis???
like wad my fren said..
"g0t la0po ler still nid gan la0po??"

tis is wad ii g0t fr0m his friendster msg:
[[[Ben
Posted 17/5/2007 4:04 PM

laopo.. wo xiang nii. confirm sleeping like a pig nw. but laopo look so cute while sleeping. hehe. *muacks*]]]

the "la0po" he refering is his "gan la0po" n0t me..
the way tat gal t0k was s0.. ... *haissss*
even his frens als0 said THEY s0 sweet & ask him whether they r t0gether?
w0rse thing is...
he put up a gal pics named his la0po..
ii n0t sure if the gal is his "gan la0po"
but n0t impt...

ii dunn0 h0w cl0se both of uu..
it really sick when uu asked me t0 g0 see page 23 of ur c0mments~
and telling me maybe ii w0uld understand m0re..

h0w am ii g0ing t0 understand when my bf
calling an0ther gal "la0po"
and ii wasnt aware of anything...

ii reallly reallllly veriiiii tiredddd....
ii d0 n0t n0e h0w l0ng ii can hang on anym0re..



p/s: lengleng, thanks f0r listening me out, stand by side and supp0rt me..
mewmew, uu always my g0od sis and always lend me sh0ulder when ii nid it...
dai l0u, thanks f0r the acc0mpany and advise..
and s0rrie ii didnt g0 "IN" bed and pls dun BLOCK me =.=



**原来爱情这么伤