it is painful..

many many things t0 say..

firstly ii w0uld like t0 ap0logise t0 all
tat ii g0ne miSsing f0r the past few daes..
and make uu guys w0rried f0r me..
and ii didnt on my MSN even th0u
ii was here checking emails or bl0gging...
and didnt play maple f0r ab0ut 1 mth?
s0rrie t0 all my maple frens..
ii cant play wif uu all and disturb uu like ii used t0 anym0re..

special thanks t0 th0se ii nv met b4 and was thr
t0 listen me out.. giv me advises..
and chat wif me when ii nid them...
Mama
Ewin Jiejie
Xia0hua
Belle
LengLeng
Hitay0
Eric

and all my frens out there.. uu-n0e-wh0-uu-r~

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s0meb0dy email asked me...
"am ii av0iding him.."
"cant uu guys sit d0wn and t0k?"
"whyy uu dun let him explain..."
ii dun even rem when ii giv her my bl0g link..
ii really dunn0 wad t0 reply her..
if uu r reading, iim s0rrie tat ii didnt reply ur mail...
thanks f0r ur c0ncerns.. appreciate it..

ever tat incident, we c0uldnt chat s0 well in MSN we used be..
g0t few times, we chatted halfway..
HE OFFLINE!!
AND THEN II RECEIVED HIS EMAIL..
and fr0m tat, ii c0uldnt sleep at nite...

ii wish ii c0uld p0p in s0me sleeping pills
or drink daddy's wines and g0 bed...
but ii cant..
ii t0o y0ung f0r th0se and ii under medicati0n

after s0me times.. we did t0k again...
but it wasnt same as last time..
he still calling me "la0po" but ii didnt call him "dear" anym0re..

ii d0 n0t haf the c0urage t0 tell him s0mething..
ii t0t he c0uld felt it..
but he s0meh0w dun get it..
funny thing is he seems dunn0 wad is wr0ng here
and ii als0 TIRED t0 explain it all over again..

is n0t tat ii nv giv him chance and time..
he n0es ii get jeal0us easily...
if he treasure our relati0nship..
he can take 5mins or even leSs than tat...
t0 rem0ve the GAL'S PIC and verify EVERYTHING
and even on his friendster..
ii n0e he is busy lately..
dun tell me 5mins he als0 cant spare?

bc0s of tis relati0nship..
ii put in al0t till ii cann0t breathe..
ii d0 n0t n0e wad else t0 amend tis...
ii feels s0 sad n0w....
s0 tireddddddd........
wish s0meb0dy c0uld take me away..
as far as p0ssible...
ii cant take it anym0re.....
treat tat iim SELFISH......
ALL MY FAULTS...........

ii cant tink of any reas0n t0 l0ve uu anym0re..
pls let me g0..............